I`ve had friends. Good and bad. Funny and sad. Happy and mad. All sorts. But not all reali qualify the meaning of a true friend. Even the ones who get to hold titles.
So many "bestfriends" came and went. So i guess, they shudnt be entitled to dat label.
Currently, one of my "bestfriends" hasn't even bothered to contact w me since her bday which was in March. When I finally bumped into her and I asked her where has she gone to, she simply said, we talk later ok? Ya, and the sms or call nvr came. Dont question why Im d one who didnt contact her. She don even reply to my smses. The other one promises to send me those photos of our last time together, but let me see, it has already been 3 months. I can guarantee u, dat 3 months will soon turn to 3 years. Im not kidding. Kata "bestfriends".
And if Im not wrong I have like another.. 2 "bestfriends" whom I've known quite long. They don even bother to keep in touch. And let me say this, "I'm busy with work/my life" is just a stupid excuse. Ur not the only one in the world who is busy and have a life. Dont be selfish. Why do I even bother keeping i touch when our conversations go like this...
Me: Hello! What u doing? "BF": Not much, why? Me: Ouh, takda, nak tanya je khabar.. How r u? "BF": Im fine, thks.. Me: Are u free this wkend?
If Im lucky, I get a reply to dat qns. But usuali, the convo ends there. This is what I call the "DONT BOTHER" attitude. Where you noe, they only answer what ur asking them, not out of interest, but out of politeness and rightness. Like "have you eaten? -yes.", "what u doing? -watch tv." etc.. Sometimes, i think they sound like a robot, programmed to answer qns w simple replies.
Since I know "bestfriends" dont realli function as they say they are, I have quite a no. of gd friends. I dont dare to start calling them bestfriend or anythn like dat just so they don start having the "DONT BOTHER" attitude. They are realli gd friends. But this r'ship is very vulnerable. Simple or petty things can just cause a rift. And especially external things, nothing to do w us. It maybe bcz of some work, some other friends, some backstabbers, and the friendship is over. And usuali, this IS the r'ship i treasure most bcz im able to not expect so much but yet what we share makes us happy.
What makes me sad abt the good friends, i treat them just as gd as "bestfriends". They always have my back. They will always have my time. Anytime, anywhere, Im there. But when we have a small argument and it creates a distance btwn us, my gd friend moves on to other friends whom usuali was disliked. And den poof! They are as close as sisters. N there I am, looking like an idiot. Why? Im walking ard w a knife stuck in my back! As if I wasnt bleeding enough, my gd friend can even act as if nothing happen. I wonder how can one turn so cruel and cold. Maybe, it gives them a sense of achievement to see me sad.
Sometimes, I wonder. When Im finally happy without anyone's crap, they come back n say dat I have always been there for them, and dat I didnt do anythn wrong except being a gd person to them.
I reali have been there, done dat. Dats y friendship is not forever to me. Its a matter of understanding the meaning of 'friend' and reali know the meaning appreciation. And sometimes, I can nvr understand why Im still nice to ppl who treat me like dirt.
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Solehah Binti Mohari
June 17, 1987
19, Female
Gemini
Bedok Norf, Singapore
TP Graduate - Diploma in Business Information Technology
Chomel Pte Ltd - Merchandising Dept Single; not looking
Non-clubber; non-smoker; non-drinker
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